During Naptime

My husband and I generally enjoy Elise's very long nap times. That kid can knock out 3 hours if we let her. On Saturday mornings, when she is down for her first nap, the husband and I can be found staring into our computer monitors. Sitting at my desk is one of the few things that cannot be accomplished while Elise is awake. And while I do have a few hours of homework set before me this weekend, I am not doing homework.

I am escaping into my blogs. My husband, playing computer games. Me - blogs. My friends for now. My husband asked what I was looking at and it can be summed up in 2 words: kids and crafts. Often both at the same time. I'll add my blogroll up here eventually, but I can spend hours reading about what other parents are doing or what other people are creating. I'm inspired, but I always feel as if I couldn't accomplish the same things. I intend to change that depressing thought process. I can be a creator.

I think I need to start simple. For some reason I tend to avoid "planned" crafts. Why would I want to make something from a pattern. Just to have a copy of what someone else has already thought up? Why cross stitch - it's just creating a picture out of thread. It's got no creativity to it! Why knit something from a pattern - it's just a repetitive motion and a skill of pattern reading. Why should I work so hard to make a copy of someone else's ideas?

But, I am drawn so much to the thought of creation! But, maybe this pull for being so unique is just too much work. I need to quiet my inner critic for now. Just create, just enjoy. I think that my own uniqueness will start to show through with time.